We Just Might Be Crazy

I didn't take the time to properly say my goodbye's to Memphis. I got caught up in the excitement of not going back that I didn't acknowledge the things I wouldn't get to do anymore, or the people I wouldn't get to see again. I think it is sort of a coping mechanism for me. I do not do well with goodbye's. I never know if I should give you a hug, or just act nonchalant and not make a fuss about it. I'm very socially awkward if you couldn't tell.

I loved living in Memphis for the most part. After I got used to it, that is. My list of things that I didn't like about it (yes, I have lists for everything) was shorter than my list of things I did like about it, but it was heavier...if that makes sense. Here, I will show you:

Things I Loved About Memphis:

*Wolfchase Mall

*Gibson's donuts

*Muddy's Bakery

*Las Delicias

*Good job

*Free rent

*All utilities paid

*Trailer opportunities

*Sister and her family live there

*Finally made a couple good friends

*Zoo

*Museums

*Activities for Atrion to do

*Cody and I relied on each other a whole lot more and worked as a team. We got to spend  a lot of time as a family since Cody worked right in our home.

*Gus's Fried chicken

*Shelby Farms

*Malco Paradisio

*This counts twice: Paying off our debts and making good money.

*Kroger and their cheaper gas rewards. 

*Mild Winters

*No state income tax

Things I Didn't Love About Memphis:

*The linoleum in my apartment. It never looked clean...EVER! I even scrubbed it with a toothbrush at one point.

*The hot and humid summers

*The crime

*The noise

*Cody wasn't happy

*Being away from family that really supports us 

*Driving a long way to get to church

*The hospitals and Medicaid system made us uncomfortable

*We want to try for another baby, but not in Memphis. In Idaho, we can get great care even if we are on Medicaid, whereas in Memphis, they treat you like second-hand citizens. Most nicer places will not accept TN medicaid because they don't get paid as much for it. 

*Being lonely when everyone else was too busy. It happened quite often since I didn't know a whole lot of people. 

*No Walmart in close distance worth going to. 

*The disgusting bugs (roaches, ants, brown recluses, and some crazy bugs I have no names for)

*The trees (I addressed this one already).

*Public schools suck, for the most part.

*10% sales tax

So, what it came down to was the fact that Cody wasn't happy there. He was away from his family and his friends. There were other things that tainted his impression of Memphis, most of which I already listed in my dislikes section. My happiness is directly proportional to his happiness. So, while we had happy times, we just weren't happy. We also couldn't date very much because we had limited options with babysitters.

The runner up is the baby thing. There is no way we can even think about having another baby without having family to help us and with the cruddy healthcare and all the crime. Also, trying to home school Atrion would be very trying.

I will miss a lot of things about living in Memphis. If my sister still lives there then I will probably come back for a visit if we have money.

So here are my salutations for Memphis: Goodbye good job! Goodbye good bosses! Goodbye living close to the Van Noys (even though I will still see you sometimes)! Goodbye new found friends The Beers' family! Goodbye Gibson's donuts and Muddy's Bakery! Goodbye delicious food choices that are too numerous to name! Goodbye cheaper gas!

Hello to family and old friends. Hello wide, open spaces and blue skies. Hello opportunities. 

Hello happiness.